I'm devastated - I lost my lovely sweet rascal of a friend last Saturday, and my other dog and I are trying to get over the shock of this totally unexpected and dramatic event. Ebony was only four years old and had shown no signs of disease - it was very quick, so quick that we don't really know what exactly it was, didn't manage to get the detailed US that might have given us a diagnosis - barely 48 hours from the first thought that "she looks a little off" over the vet visit and X-rays that showed, that it was BAD - till she collapsed and I had to carry her back to the vet in a coma to be helped out of her misery. The most likely cause was a tumor in the abdomen that ruptured, causing severe internal bleeding. I find it hard to understand why I didn't pick up any signs earlier - the only thing that I had noticed was that she seemed a little less exuberant and bouncy over the summer, but I just thought that she was getting out of puppyhood and becoming more mature. Otherwise she was doing all her usual things, eating well etc. - just shows that you never know.
She was so alert and bright - and I miss her horribly - even if she was exasperating at times and loved to tease me!
I have just started preliminary work on a few canvasses, but I think that it will be a while before I'll be able to really produce anything worthwhile - although I know, that working in the studio with my music playing will help me more than anything to heal and to recover a sense of peace and purpose.
Hopefully, if I whittle away at it little by little without trying to force anything I will slowly get back on track. So in the meantime I will spoil my other dog and take her out to our favorite places.
Below is a shot of what I managed to do to-day - maybe eventually something OK will come out of it!