At this point the two canvasses that I'm working on look as if they could work quite well as a diptych - but that was never my intent! The canvas to the right is finished but I'm still trying to figure out what to do with it's mate on the left and just put them together to see how they worked that way. The tapes are a way to try out different lines etc. and they get moved around a lot - and this work is not coming together as easily as the other one - it has changed quite a bit since above and I'm getting frustrated and wondering if it will ever work out! Quite a few areas are looking good - my problem now is to get them to fit together and to get the colours and shapes to jell as a whole.
Sometimes I really wonder why I keep doing this and right now I think, that I just need a break from painting - some time to do other things and as they say "smell the roses". Life is short and who really cares if I keep painting or not - there are so many other artists producing good paintings out there, so does the world really need more paintings?? I admit that I am a little discouraged at the moment, partly due to the general lack of interest in buying original art - as evidenced by the galleries closing down and our digital society's thirst for what's new, to be replaced when something else new comes along - and the easy availability of mass produced prints and the like.
Another reason for my feeling a little despondent is that I just found out that a lovely young woman in my extended family passed away yesterday - it is so sad to see the young go - and even if we all knew, that she was terminal she seemed to be holding her own on treatment and it was still a shock. Cancer is every where it seems with no regard for anything - she leaves behind a four year old daughter, a husband, parents, siblings and a large group of friends. Who have all been pulling for her with fundraisers to support cancer research etc. - my son-in law is doing the "Ride for Cancer" from Vancouver to Seattle for the second year here in June. Unfortunately, for Vanessa it is now too late - but hopefully others in the future will benefit.
But in the meantime I will soldier on and bring this one home so that I can be happy with it, I hope. And even if I say, that I will take a break from painting - I know very well that it won't be long before it starts all over again. The process is master and it drives me relentlessly - and what else would I do????????????????,