Time marches on and my life is starting to seem almost normal - and a LOT easier and calmer - without Ebony who, as sweet, funny and lovely as she was - my young one - she was also very high maintenance and used up a lot of my energy. So now I can hopefully channel more energy into the studio as well as other things and I am starting to feel a bit encouraged by that and to think about where to go from here. The last two paintings were so much part of my grieving period that they somehow feel like the end of a chapter - and maybe it is time for a new beginning?
The little painting above reminds me of sun, sea, warmth and a happier time (the summer of 2013). It is also based on the coastline and the estuaries around here, my absolutely favorite areas for re-fuelling as well as finding inspiration for my work. I have been walking the dykes around here with my older dog for the last few days, yesterday in strong winds and intermittent rain with dark purple clouds overhead and several large flocks of snow geese in their V-formations showing up white against the dark - very beautiful and almost haunting, with their voices sounding in the wind.
Fall is definitely here and there is no denying that summer is all gone - I am sad to see it go but on the other hand there is a silver lining: the wonderful autumn colors are starting to appear and as I look at them and marvel at their beauty, a small voice inside is saying that maybe, just maybe a series of paintings based on warmer and stronger colors will be my next project ---------------?
So far it is only a glimmer - the seeds will have to germinate and develop - and I will have to wait till the ideas become clearer. It would be a mistake to jump into anything rashly, even if tempting!
So I will prepare some canvasses and ponder how to start and generally what to do - and we shall see!
I don't know what is going on here - but suddenly I am unable to change this colour to white. It has never been a problem before and it is most annoying!!! At least It would let me increase the font size so that this will be easier to read.
The pain of loosing Ebony is now less acute - more a pervading sense of sadness and an increased awareness of how brief and uncertain life can be and that we never know how soon and unexpectedly disaster can strike - a strong reminder to appreciate the here and now as well as everyone and everything that are dear to us.
The two paintings above are just finished and have been my salvation during the last few weeks; they are my "Ebony paintings": she is in every brushstroke as is my love for her and her spirit, as well as my sorrow of loosing her. I call them "Away I" and "Away II" in her memory.
They are still part of my Estuary and Flyway series - and are also inspired by the Fraser River Estuaries where we have spent so many happy hours together in all kinds of weather.
I hope to continue with this series a bit longer and a couple of canvasses await me in the studio - it will help to get started in there again.
Never underestimate the healing power of Art!!!