And for better or worse I know "in my bones" that nothing further I can do will be an improvement but may just as well do the opposite - so it is time to let go. Am I happy with it? I don't know yet - I have to get away from it for a while before I can be objective.
So now I just have to find a title for it - any suggestions will be welcome - I always have trouble with titles.
-------------------- or Not so good! This is my newest painting in process and I have been having lots of fun with the bamboo pen and dark and white lines; this is where I got to earlier to-day - unfortunately I decided that the white lines were just a bit too much in one area and covered some of them up, like this:
But looking at the two stages now I somehow think that I like the first version better! Sometimes seeing the photos will show you the full benefit of the change but also what was lost and where further corrections may be needed, in the same way as - or better than - looking at it in a mirror or turning it upside down can do; right now I think I know exactly what I lost and what I need to do to recover the design element that disappeared - but I will sleep on it in stead of jumping into it both feet first - and making another of my multiple mistakes. Or maybe not mistakes, but an exploration of the many different options that are all part of the process of building the layers into a whole. Each step adds something and always leaves testimony behind, making for more interest in the end.
Or I hope so.
So here we are already in June - I can't believe how time flies and it seems faster and faster the older I get. It has been a busy month with some unexpected hurdles, one of which is a bit of a blow: I'm having increasing trouble with my vision and as a painter that is very concerning; the good news are that it appears to be "only" cataracts so it should be fixable and I'm on the waitlist for surgery. This however did cause me to have a minor laser procedure in each eye - as the surgeon reassuringly said: he needed to punch a hole in both eyes for the fluids to circulate better - or I could go blind! OUCH - but it is now done and all is well - everyone assures me that cataract surgery is done all the time with excellent results, but the thought of someone cutting into my eyes scares me stiff!
Luckily my colour sense seems OK - at least I think so - but I can't read more than about five or ten minutes without severe eyestrain causing headaches and that is a huge loss. I love curling up with a good book and that is no longer possible - so what to do? Paint of course, and as long as I keep it to no more than about two hours at a time it is OK and I am eternally grateful for that. So I have just finished a 36 x 36" painting that I am very pleased with and above you see a small detail of it - it has been a chance to experiment with different ways of using my old bamboo pen and Golden's wonderful High Flow Acrylics. This gives me the ability to use finely drawn lines as well as larger sweeps of colour - something that I have long wished to do without really being able to get it to work.
This is the resulting painting and I'm hoping to continue exploring the many different possibilities and see where they will take me:
And so life goes on and it seems that no matter how hard you try to be organized and to keep your life simple, new and unexpected problems can crop up to complicate things (my passport and some other things also just got stolen from my home - I think I know the culprit but have no way of proving it) but what can you do? Except just deal with it and keep going.