Why, oh why did I let old bank statements, paid utility bills and other personal and financial records pile up on me to the point where I feel that I am drowning in paper??? Years and years of paper that I wasn't comfortable recycling just in case anything should fall into the wrong hands - one hears so much about identity theft and the ravages that can cause - so I guess I became a bit paranoid and just kept it all; it was OK for a while, but it has now reached a crisis point and my project here in January has been to clear this up as well as numerous other chores that needed doing.
Three years ago with every good intention I bought a small shredder but never got any further, and would you believe it - it was still in its unopened box? I should get a medal for laziness/procrastination, but what can one do when there are so many other much more interesting things to do?
However, now is the time and fortunately the shredder still works and I am half way there - though
slowly, as it can only do two, three sheets max at a time as well as running hot after only 30 min. or so.
Very annoying, but I am learning to do short bouts of it as well as tackling other jobs alongside; it is going quite well: several household chores are done, the studio has been tidied up - at least the worst areas, and I am in the process of gessoing a number of canvasses so that they are ready when the other jobs are finished - they have been my "carrot" and reward for finally getting organized - I am not allowing myself to start painting until I am done - or I would never get there.
Hopefully in a week or so - can't wait --------------!
And now that one can start noticing the days getting longer - things are indeed looking up!!!!!!!
So here we are in the new year - 2015 if you can believe it - and it is time to take stock and wonder what this brand spanking new year will bring! Personally I hope for a better year than the last one where I had to deal with a few health problems as well as the sudden and unexpected death of my beloved young dog, Ebony, in September; the shock of that really threw me for a loop.
It did however give rise to a tremendous burst of creativity as a form of escape, and it has resulted in a string of smaller canvasses - some more successful than others - and lately I have been busy reworking them as needed to bring them to the point where I can be satisfied with them; the one above is the last to "come home".
My goal this past year after leaving the Fort Gallery has been to try to find another way of working - partly to make it easier on my back, partly because I felt that it was time for a change; and to do that, I needed time without the pressure of a yearly solo show, as well as several group shows with themes that interrupted the flow of my other work. I am actually quite pleased with the way it is going and I think, that I am on the right track towards an abstract freedom that I have always hoped to reach without quite being able to get there. This abstract freedom does not mean a lack of compositional structure or an underlying idea of a subject that may or may not be clear - far from it; there seems to be a notion among a lot of people, including some artists, that anyone can just knock off abstract paintings quickly and easily (my three year old could do that!!!! is a common statement) but at least for me it is much more difficult to paint a good abstract, where everything works together in balance and harmony - for the simple reason that there really is nothing "real" to guide you; everything has to come from your own heart.
In 2015 I plan to continue this way with hopefully a few larger canvasses as well - but, who knows where it will take me? That is the exciting part of it and what keeps me going - and I can't wait to find out!
But first the studio needs a major clean out and I have quite a lot of other practical chores to get done!